I've know it for a long time. When I became fully aware of what it was I cared for it, nurtured it, even defended it against those who tried to blame it for their insecurities and shortcomings. It has been there for me JUST as I am , way before you came along and showed who you were...before and after. Sharing it with you was my choice not an obligation . Just because you claimed to give me yours doesn't mean I was ready to give you all of mine. To be honest what you had to give came with too many disclosures anyway. Too many sacrifices resulted in only one loss...my spirit. Ultimately the only way to accept yours, meant changing mine. While yours was engulfed in emotion, mine was governed by need. I waited for you to show me that you we're capable of giving me what I needed, as I welcomed your necessities...then we would work on what we wanted together. I never expected all of you , just the part of you that made me compatible with you, making it all worth it.
I was waiting for our differences to join forces ultimately coming together for the common goal: to be and let be. A fish to your bird is was what I became, constantly trying to figure out how I'd make our love work against all our odds...odds that were self inflicted because what you had was no longer easy to handle. My love isn't a charity case.Its unique, flawed, maybe even a little crazy...but in totality, with the right match, its perfect . It makes sense, it has a mind of its own and without your love, my love will be just fine.
